I lie a lot to people these days,
Its a big decision to make,
But to tell someone the honest truth about how you feel,
Is often more than they can take.
They might ask how you are,
but are they asking because they care?
Or a sense of obligation?
do they really want you to share?
I grit my teeth and show the world a smile,
To mask the real pain inside,
“I’m doing great”, “I am fine”
in fact I’m looking for somewhere to hide.
Yet survival comes naturally to me,
I CAN do this on my own,
So when you read about how down I am,
you can fuck off instead of moan.
I do not need people around me,
who simply drain my energy.
I’m moving forwards at my own pace,
In my own style unique to me.
I’ll take the risks that I see fit,
and watch the cards as they fall,
right or wrong this is what I want,
No challenge too big or too small.
I will find my way with friends by my side,
not stabbing me in the back,
Leaving behind the users, abusers,
and those who give me flack.
I am no longer here to help just you,
and neglecting the most important thing.
This is my life, my journey, My adventure
and I’m excited to see what the future may bring.
I have a few friends who see right through,
the lies that I occasionally spit out,
These are the ones I can turn to,
when there are times of doubt.
And for the others be aware,
that you’re being left in the past,
No more will I allow the hurt and pain you cause,
to stop this train from going fast.