Book Sales Review

I am pleased to announce that Diary of The Depressed Moose 2 is now available on Kindle and paperback formats through Amazon, taken my total books published in 2012 to 3!

Bare in mind that in reality its only been since August that I published them so I am very proud of myself to have accomplished this in 4 months.

Now I am going to turn around for a huge pat on the back from you lot!

And while your in a good mood may I ask a favour? no? tough I am going to anyway.

You can visit my “Authors” page on Amazon here where all my books are listed. I would be most grateful if you could click on the books and click like for each one.

So back to sales on Amazon

On kindle I have sold a total of 52 copies of my books – 8 in the USA and 44 in the UK

In Paperback format I have sold a total of 61 copies 1 in Europe, 15 in the USA and 45 in the UK

so a grand total of 113 books have been sold on Amazon

I can look back on this year with a feeling of pride! I have come a long way since the dark days at the start of 2012 and although the war is still not over I have won more battles than I have lost!

Roll on 2013!

2012 in review

The stats helper monkeys prepared a 2012 annual report for this blog.

Here’s an excerpt:

4,329 films were submitted to the 2012 Cannes Film Festival. This blog had 32,000 views in 2012. If each view were a film, this blog would power 7 Film Festivals

Click here to see the complete report.


some interesting stats here



New Years Eve

What plans have you got for New Years Eve?

Sheryl and I have been together for 7 years and we have never spent one together as she works on this night and ends up staying at her mum’s as she finishes so late.

This year I was hoping to spend the night at the club where she works so when the clock strikes midnight and brings in a new year I could be with my wife and best friend and we could start 2013 together.

Naturally it looks like I can’t do that because we have no money as always and are about to run out of gas and electric on the meters and any spare money we have will be spent on this!

It has been 3 years since I went and had a night out and I was desperate for one this year, but as always it looks like I shall be spending new years eve on my lonesome as Brandon will be at his mums and the other kids will be at their Nan’s while Sheryl works.

If you are out celebrating the new year raise a glass for little ole me stuck indoors again feeling sorry for himself!

I Made it Through Christmas

Well technically until about 6pm Christmas day when back came the black cloud after 3 week of feeling great!

Thankfully we had a great Christmas, the kids said it was the best ever for them but by the evening I was feeling lousy again and it has continued since then.

I guess the excitement of having something to look forward to, as in the kids opening presents, had to go once they had finished unwrapping them all but now I feel empty again. I have nothing to look forward to unless I start getting excited about the visit of the Easter bunny!

Now the reality of having spent all our money has set in and I am back to wondering where the next spare £1 will come from as for the next 2 weeks at least we will be working on clearing Sheryl’s overdraft and trying to start the week on a + balance instead of the -£200 that we do currently.

The 4 kids together in a photo at last!

The 4 kids together in a photo at last!


I even did the whole smiling thing and was actually happy for a while. On Christmas eve I managed to attend the midnight service at church where I enjoyed a wonderful service and came out feeling amazingly connected spiritually (hard for me to put into words how I felt spiritually) but I could feel the depression circling and just about spared it from encompassing me until the evening.

Boxing day was a non event for me, Sheryl was out from 3 pm until 2.30 am so I was left alone with my thoughts which is never a good thing on the bad days.

Moose and the 2 lovely ladies in his life

Moose and the 2 lovely ladies in his life


And so I have decided the time is right for The Diary of The Depressed Moose 2 to be worked on, just to give me something to take my mind off reality for a while.

Hopefully will be finished and published before new years Day but all depends on my mood and how long this cloud hangs over me.

How was your Christmas? Hope you had a nice one!

Wishing you a Merry Christmoose!


This will be my last past until after Christmas day so from myself, Sheryl and the gang I would like you to wish you all  A VERY HAPPY CHRISTMOOSE!!

Six months ago I started this blog and the support I have received from you has played a massive part in my recovery, which still needs completion but is closer than ever!.

I have made some new friends via this blog and also been humbled by people who have donated money to me and my family as well.

May Santa fill your stockings and bring you everything you wished for, and if you have time please remember to think about the people who are alone and have no one, if you know someone like that they could be waiting for your call or message. Five minutes of your time could well change the whole life of someone!

See you all next week when hopefully this great spell I am under continues and I can share my photos with you!

Take care and God bless each and everyone of you!


Breaking the Silence

You may have noticed its been a few days since my last post but it has not been a silence for sinister reasons.

In fact quite the opposite and things have been going well, mentally at least. Physically is a different matter as once again my body lets me down but ho hum pop some nurofen and the pain goes for a few hours 😀

I have done no writing or reading since last week so need to catch up but it has been a nice break for me spending time with the kids and wifey, let alone finishing assassin’s creed 3 and playing it so much I look at trees in terms of whether I can scale them like I have to in the game!

Anyway below is a picture containing something really cute, and a little kitten called Izzy who is a new addition to the moose family.

Really cute! oh and the kitten aint bad either

Really cute! oh and the kitten aint bad either


She arrived at 3am on Saturday morning courtesy of my mum bringing her home from the Isle of Wight where she was my brothers kitten and she was my present to Sheryl for Christmas!

19 hours later and we had to rush her to the vet hospital as she was choking and £126 later we brought her back, now it is amazing how much cuteness can wear off for £126 but I decided against sending her out to work to recoup the money and instead have cuddles with her.

World meet Izzy, Izzy meet the world.


Moose Kicking Ass

Has anyone seen my depression? It seems to have taken a bit of an ass kicking the past week and has (temporarily) done a runner!

My PHQ9 score has gone under 10 for the first time ever since I started doing the form to monitor my depression.

It has been as high as high twenties and today when I did the questionnaire I was at 9!!

This week started out on Sunday with my day out to meet friends in London and I have even been out visiting relatives yesterday and today, and despite a few near misses with the IBS it has been a bloody good week!

There is something to be said for actually forcing yourself out and about and looking at a different environment instead of the same four walls everyday.

I am recommending it to you all as of now! get out of the house and have a day out!

Lilybet the Therapist


The amazing picture above was done by Lilybet at nursery today.

Everyday she comes home with a painting for Daddy but today’s painting was more special than the others.

When Sheryl asked her what it was my 3 year old princess replied “it is for Daddy to look at when he is moody!”

She is such a daddies girl its a beautiful thing! She always looks after me.

One day I asked her why she looks after me so much and she said “because I don’t want you to fall apart as I don’t want a new daddy!”

Life is good when Queen Lilybet is looking out for her daddy!

Would it be wrong to exploit her and sell her work on ebay? 🙂

One Proud Moose



It is not often that I feel pride in my achievements as the self doubt from depression often takes away anything positive that I think about my blog, books and generally anything to do with me being a mental health fighter.

But today I am saying “screw that” with the negativity and celebrating a milestone.

Today I have hit 30k all time views which for a 6 month old blog is pretty awesome in my own humble opinion.

Thank you everyone who reads, comments and supports me and my lickle blog. It means the world to me that people recognise my words and feel like I can contribute to the mental health community!

Here’s to the 40k viewers and a continuation of me feeling positive about what I do!