I love how the radio feature on Spotify can throw up a song at you that you would not pick up on yourself.
So I am the first to admit that behind the hard exterior I am a big softie..
This song resonates with me
“I Bruise Easily”
My skin is like a map
Of where my heart has been
And I cant hide the marks
Its not a negative thing
So I let down my guard
Drop my defences down by my clothes
I’m learning to fall
With no safety net to cushion the blow
I bruise easily
So be gentle when you handle me
Theres a mark you leave
Like a love heart carved on a tree
I bruise easily
Can’t scratch the surface
Without moving me underneath
I bruise easily
I bruise easily
I found your fingerprints
On a glass of wine
Do you know you’re leaving them
All over this heart of mine too
But if I never take this leap of faith
I’ll never know
So im learning to fall
With no safety net to cushion the blow
[Chorus]
Anyone who can touch you
Can hurt you or heal you
Anyone who can reach you
Can love you or leave you
The storm is lifting, the sun is breaking through the clouds again after a rough period
and more importantly the meds seem to be working again 😀
And then I heard this song today… And who doesn’t appreciate a good ole session of sing-a-long-with-moose
Ps Ant you have been immense the past few nights, considering how shit you have been feeling yourself I really appreciate it
I was in a tunnel
And couldn’t see the light
And whenever I’d look up
I couldn’t see the sky
Sometimes when I’m standin’
It seems like I done walked for miles
And my heart could be cryin’
Dead in the middle of a smile
But then I climbed the hills
And saw the mountains
I hollered help ’cause I was lost
Then I felt the strong wind
Heard a small voice sayin’
The storm is over
The storm is over now
And I can see the sunshine
Somewhere beyond the clouds
I feel Heaven, yeah
Heaven is over me
Come on and set me free
Now in the midst of my battle
All hope was gone
Downtown in a rushed crowd
And felt all alone
Every now and then
I felt like I would lose my mind
I’ve been racin’ for years
And still no finish line, oh
But then I climbed the hills
And saw the mountains
I hollered help ’cause I was lost
Then I felt the strong wind
And then a small voice sayin’
The storm is over
The storm is over now
And I can see the sunshine
Somewhere beyond the clouds
I can feel Heaven, yeah
Heaven is over me
Come on and set me free
Somehow my beginnin’ stepped right in
Then faith became my friend
And now I can depend
On the voices of the wind
When it’s sayin’
The storm is over
The storm is over now
And I can see the sunshine
Somewhere beyond the clouds
I can feel Heaven, yeah
Heaven is over me
Won’t you come and set me free?
Won’t you set me free?
The storm is over
The storm is over now
And I can see the sunshine
Somewhere beyond the clouds
I can feel Heaven, yeah
Heaven is over me
Won’t you come and set me free?
Won’t you come and set me free
Just like, if that guy can see the light, shinin’
Somewhere beyond the clouds
If that guy can see the light, shinin’
Take it down, down
If that guy can see the light, shinin’
The day is going, world is runnin’
The clouds moving, the sun shinin’
I made it home, I made it home
Prayin’ for a pot of gold
The storm is over now
I’am telling you I could see the light
Somewhere beyond the clouds
I can feel Heaven over me
Heaven is over me
Come and set me free
Come and set me free
Won’t you come and set me free?
Ok The song is actually called This Woman’s Work but I am allowed some poetic licence aren’t I?
I love Maxwell and his music, hell I seduced many a woman back in the day with Urban Hang Suite playing in the background. If you love soul music seriously go and hunt Maxwell down on Spotify and have a listen, the guys voice is just incredible. This is his version of the song originally done by Kate Bush who I cannot stand as she looks like an old Maths teacher we had in school.
I love how the lyrics from songs can just hit you!
“This Woman’s Work”
Pray God you can cope
I’ll stand outside
This woman’s work
This woman’s world
Oh it’s hard on the man
Now his part is over
Now starts the craft of the Father
I know you’ve got a little life in you yet
I know you’ve got a lot of strength left
I know you’ve got a little life in you yet
I know you’ve got a lot of strength left
I should be crying but I just can’t let it show
I should be hoping but I can’t stop thinking
All the things we should’ve said that I never said
All the things we should’ve done but we never did
All the things we should’ve given but I didn’t
Oh, darling, make it go, make it go away
Give me these moments
Give them back to me
Give me your little kiss
Give me your…
I know you have a little life in you yet
Give me your hand, babe
I know you have a lot of strength left
Give me your pretty hand
I know you have a little life in you yet
Oh oh oh
I know you have a lot of strength left
My love child
I know you have a little life in you yet
Whatever you need me
I know you have a lot of strength left
Give me your hand
I know you have a little life in you yet
Give me your hand
I know you have a lot of strength left
I should be crying but I just can’t let it show, baby
I should be hopin’ but I can’t stop thinkin’
Of all the things we should’ve said that we never said
All the things we should’ve done that we never did
All the things that you wanted from me
All the things that you needed from me
All the things I should’ve given but I didn’t
Oh, darling, make it go away, just make it go away
Its nearly the end of a wet and miserable November and as I write this it is 2.30 in the morning and I am sitting awake with tooth ache!
Now if you are not aware of the significance of tooth ache at 2.30 let me break it down for you (two thirty or tooth hurty – same thing innit – and you thought I was a posh bloke didnt ya 😛 )
Moose and tooth ache do not really combine well! In fact it must be around 8 years since I last saw a dentist, and was about 12 years prior to that!
Hopefully just the result of stress I have been under recently. Queen Lilybet is still unwell but touch wood so far tonight she has not woke up coughing and being sick so after 4 weeks I pray she is finally on the mend and go back to nursery tomorrow.
The past few nights she has been awake until 3-4 am, in fact at 2 am Friday night I was in the middle of a bubble wrap war with my 3 year old, and to think Sheryl calls me childish!
Saturday night saw me hit a bit of a mini crisis when I was so down I decided only Jack Daniels could help but thankfully a few choice words of support were said on twitter and Facebook and I saw the light! I also had a wonderful telephone call with Teresa in Texas for 10 mins that filled me with joy! Teresa you are my angel!
Besides that little blip I am feeling positive today, even through the ache in my mouth. A little physical pain pails into significance compares to mental anguish believe me!
And so back to November rain…
I fricking love this song and the epic 9 minute video that goes with it!
As always the lyrics are open to interpretation but as far as I am aware the song was written by Axl Rose about his marriage. Some of the words though can fit with how I feel about myself at times and about depression.
An example is as follows
“So never mind the darkness we still can find a way
Nothin’ lasts forever even cold November rain”
we all know the darkness is a feeling common with depression
enjoy the video below and the fan-bloody-tastic guitar solo by Slash
the lyrics are as follows
When I look into your eyes I can see a love restrained
But darlin’ when I hold you, don’t you know I feel the same?yeah
Nothin’ lasts forever and we both know hearts can change
And it’s hard to hold a candle in the cold November rain
We’ve been through this such a long long time
Just tryin’ to kill the pain, ooh yeah
But lovers always come and lovers always go
An’ no one’s really sure who’s lettin’ go today, walking away
And if we take the time to lay it on the line
I could rest my head just knowin’ that you were mine, all mine
So if you want to love me then darlin’ don’t refrain
Or I’ll just end up walkin’ in the cold November rain
Do you need some time on your own?
Do you need some time all alone?
Everybody needs some time on their own
Don’t you know you need some time all alone?
I know it’s hard to keep an open heart
When even friends seem out to harm you
But if you could heal the broken heart
Wouldn’t time be out to charm you?
Sometimes I need some time on my own
Sometimes I need some time all alone
Everybody needs some time on their own
Don’t you know you need some time all alone
And when your fears subside and shadows still remain, oh yeah
I know that you can love me when there’s no one left to blame
So never mind the darkness we still can find a way
Music plays an important part of my life, I have a strange mix of likes ranging from Rod Stewart, Elton John, Robbie Williams through to the likes of Dr Dre, Eminem. My Ipod has music from each of the last 5 decades!
But when I am down it is interesting how much more of the lyrics you hear as opposed to the music/song overall.
As I have always said to Sheryl hearing me singing is a sign that I am in a good frame of mind but recently I am just sitting listening rather than singing. (Btw this is good news for those with delicate hearing as apparently the noise I hear in my head when singing is not the same noise other people hear!)
Anyhoo…. These lyrics hit me tonight and struck a chord
I used to be the main express All steam and whistles heading west
Picking up my pain from door to door
Riding on the storyline
Furnace burning overtime
But this train don’t stop,
This train don’t stop,
This train don’t stop there anymore
Yep that was me, once the main express – one day it will be the case again I hope and pray!
Here is the song in full – the video is awesome with Justin Timberlake as Elton John
And the lyrics for you to singalong with the moose
You may not believe it
But I don’t believe in miracles anymore
And when I think about it
I don’t believe I ever did for sure
All the things I’ve said in songs
All the purple prose you bought from me
Reality’s just black and white
The sentimental things I’d write
Never meant that much to me
chorus
I used to be the main express
All steam and whistles heading west
Picking up my pain from door to door
Riding on the storyline
Furnace burning overtime
But this train don’t stop,
This train don’t stop,
This train don’t stop there anymore
You don’t need to hear it
But I’m dried up and sick to death of love
If you need to know it
I never really understood that stuff
All the stars and bleeding hearts
All the tears that welled up in my eyes
Never meant a thing to me
Read ’em as they say and weep
I’ve never felt enough to cry
[repeat chorus]
When I said that I don’t care
It really means my engine’s breaking down
The chisel chips my heart again
The granite cracks beneath my skin
I crumble into pieces on the ground
[repeat chorus]
But this train don’t stop,
This train don’t stop,
This train don’t stop there anymore
I’m not ashamed to admit this but I love Robbie Williams!
Not only does he have a great surname but he is a great entertainer, while he readily admits his voice is not the best he always entertains and has me laughing when he on TV. I have a lot of his tracks as favourites as mine but today I was reminded of an old favourite that I hadn’t heard for a while and I am now adopting it as my official anthem!
Video and lyrics are below as always have a look at the lyrics and see how they relate to me (and possibly you!)
Send someone to love me
I need to rest in arms
Keep me safe from harm
In pouring rain
Give me endless summer
Lord I fear the cold
Feel I’m getting old
Before my time
As my soul heals the shame
I will grow through this pain
Lord I’m doing all I can
To be a better man
Go easy on my conscience
‘Cause it’s not my fault
I know I’ve been taught
To take the blame
Rest assured my angels
Will catch my tears
Walk me out of here
I’m in pain
As my soul heals the shame
I will grow through this pain
Lord I’m doing all I can
To be a better man
Once you’ve found that lover
You’re homeward bound
Love is all around
Love is all around
I know some have fallen
On stony ground
But Love is all around
Send someone to love me
I need to rest in arms
Keep me safe from harm
In pouring rain
Give me endless summer
Lord I fear the cold
Feel I’m getting old
Before my time
As my soul heals the shame
I will grow through this pain
Lord I’m doin’ all I can
To be a better man
If I spent less time playing songpop and more writing maybe I would be over the writers block still troubling me however this song came up today and made me laugh!
My own lyrics are added beneath the video – I bet you will be singing along to this and hating me after for putting this in your head 😀
Here is my own version for the Moose
D.I.S.C.O
D.I.S.C.O
D.I.S.C.O
he is disco
He is D -depressed
He is I – irrational
He is S – slightly mental
He is C – somewhat crazy
He is O – out of his mind oh ohhhhhhhhhh
D.I.S.C.O,
He is disco
He has D – diarrhea
He has I – IBS
He has S – stress and anxiety
He has C – change of underwear
He is O – oh ohhhh feck not again
D.I.S.C.O,
He is disco
He is D- Determined
He is I – Inspirational
He is S – Supportive
He is C – Creative
He is O – Outstanding oh ohhhhhhhhh
Now imagine me sitting here giggling away to myself at my own genius!
The Depressed Moose 