How are You?

Apart from Teresa feels like a long time since someone asked me that question.

It is not the case but because she messages me everyday it just feels like she is the only one who is really interested in how things are at Moose mansion.

Which got me thinking about how often we actually miss the signs that other people send us to show they are around.

Is it a case of people not being blunt enough for fear of offending us? Or that we chose to not see them reaching out?

I am guilty myself at times of wallowing in self pity enough to not notice that someone has commented on a post or liked it, a random tweet has been sent to me or even a poke on facebook.

These could all be signs from someone trying to get my attention in a subtle way and I don’t recognise it seeing as I am as subtle as a moose in a china shop 😀

“Woe is me, no one cares” is a regular moan although technically speaking I do not talk like a victorian nobleman but you get the idea yet I can look back and see attempts made by others to engage me and drag me out of down moods.

If you are one of those lovely folks who thinks I am an ignorant so and so for not seeing your attempts to speak to me please accept my apologies. Unless its wrapped around a brick sometimes it is hard for me to see!

For those who have asked “How Are You?” the truth is that I am not quite sure! Up and down on a daily basis is the best description I can give although even that is  not strictly 100% accurate sometimes the ups and downs happen on the same day.

I have noticed that my meds should finish tomorrow and I still have 10 left in the packet instead of one which is not ideal, not taking these daily is probably the reason why my moods are fluctuating so often and evidence that I need to make sure I am taking these for a while longer yet!

In other news I am off to visit the Right (Dis)Honourable Iain Duncan Smith MP (not sure if MP means Member of Parliament or Massive Prick, guess it depends on the person) to discuss Universal Credits on Friday which should be interesting! Not expecting to get much in the way of decent answers from him in terms of what the government plan to do help people with mental health illnesses who will end up homeless and suicidal as a result of the changes but I can only make my voice heard and I intend to do just that!

Hopefully I will be able to blog about my visit and some of his answers, I will be using my own situation as the example to gather responses from him and I hope I can translate that into more information for some of you who are concerned about the changes.


A Day in my Life With Depression

Using my beautiful daughter Elizabeth “Lilybet” I have created a story about living with depression and how each day contains different scenarios.


Happiness can sometimes seem like it is far away, in the distance and over the horizon.



You feel isolated, miserable and wondering where the next happy moment will come from.

Suddenly happiness edges closer to you tantalisingly within your grasp



Each day is like a bumpy ride


Emotions and moods swinging around the place



A day with ups and downs



some days you are up


But soon you feel on a downward slide

You can feel like you’re in a tunnel


And that there are some obstacles that seem impossible to overcome


But working hard, being brave and taking little steps, you can achieve anything



And accepting help you can remain on top

But at the end of the day working hard to combat depression brings with it some great rewards like falling asleep with loved ones