Before reading this you may want to refer back to the following post so it makes more sense especially if you are a new reader. what-does-this-mean
In the post I spoke about these “out of body” experiences I was having and today finally got to speak to my Doctor about it. With my Dr you need to give at least a weeks notice before you can see him!
So besides visiting him for my anxiety,IBS and a new infection I appear to have picked up…sigh I felt inclined to finally come out the closet (to quote HelloSailor) and tell him about what happens when I am near a busy road or train lines etc.
Straight away he started typing a referral letter to see a psychiatrist! Really not sure how I feel about this but I guess if it is good enough for the likes of Frank Costello and Tony Soprano (like my mafia links there? really should add them more often!) then it is good enough for me. However the irony of him writing about how my anxiety and IBS are preventing me from wanting to leave the house and travel too far and then him telling me where they are based and asking how I would get there was not lost on me!
He has no idea of what it meant which makes me not knowing feel better in a sense but then now I wonder what the shrink will make it all! How complex live as a moose is!
It was actually kind of comforting for me to know my Dr is concerned about the apparent downturn in my depression, he really feels more like an old friend than my GP.
My depression score has moved from moderate back to severe so it appears that the depression is fighting back and this will be a lot more difficult than I was anticipating especially as I thought I was doing so much better! The good news is it has been months since any thought of suicide so there is some positive news to be thankful for.
So now the depressed moose has become an anxious, depressed, shitting himself (literally some times LOL) Moose and that is fine with me because the more I am aware of my ailments the better prepared I can be.
Now I have to learn to wait weeks or months to see the shrink! it may be well an interesting ride!