I am happily in the midst of a good spell when things are looking good for me. The two week slump has gone and I am now enjoying three good days in a row.
In the heat of the bad spells though things can, and do get on top of you if you are not careful. The thing is though is that having a bad day or days is normal when it comes to having an illness and it is perfectly fine to suffer them.
It is how we deal with these days that make all the difference.
Look at the example of someone with a broken leg, on some days they will be in less pain than on others and that is how depression works as well.
Unfortunately because depression is an invisible illness we can be sucked in by the good days and feel like we are back on track, it is then that the bad times can follow and often with vengeance. I know from my experience that when I go through spells of feeling like my old self that I end up taking too much on and get complacent. Suddenly I am brought back down to earth with an almighty bump and doom and gloom surrounds me. This is why I tend to post more on my bad days because I need to get it out in the open and off my chest, it makes a massive difference to me once I have clicked the publish button.
I learn more about myself and my depression on the bad days because I can find out about the things that trigger my drop in mood.
What people fail to understand is that it is not as simple as “be positive” when your depressed.
Trying to stay positive is difficult when depression is screaming at you that you’re a failure. It is hard work fighting against the tide of negativity that surrounds you which is why I tend to sleep a lot during the day when depression is winning.
The important thing to remember is that tomorrow is a new day and with it could come the blue skies instead of black clouds so just getting through each bad day is a show of strength from you that should never be underestimated.
It is all to easy to be caught up in the “bad day” emotions of negative thinking and despair but each day you get over is an achievement.
The other bonus of getting through these days is that when the good times come you can appreciate them more, get more things done or actually be a nicer person to be around 😀 well in my case anyway
So if you’re having a bad day try to remember that a day is only 24 hours long and when that day is over it could be the start of a good spell.
Having bad days is normal when you have depression don’t beat yourself up for having them just wait for the next day and be ready to deal with whatever tomorrow throws at you.