I am completely worn out. I have very little energy to do anything besides wake up and head back to bed a few hours later.
Stress has just got me so run down to the point that I now appear to be coming down with a cold, which means even less energy than normal. It also means more time “thinking” which is never good for me.
There are things I want to get off my chest and talk about but they are so ridiculous I am embarrassed to talk about them.I have done some very silly things the last few days/week.
Most of the things causing me stress are the usual unanswerable questions and things beyond my control that I like to spend hours worrying about.
On top of this we can now add a new problem to my ever growing list, the stress I have put myself under has resulted in me grinding my teeth again when I sleep. I had this problem about 10 years ago, and it is back.
This means that not only am I sinking lower and lower, my bowels are in overdrive, over thinking everything, tennis elbow that has been killing me for 5 months I now have constant toothache and my face has broken out with a lovely rash so the red blotches are really good for my looks!
I am not looking after myself very well and honestly need looking after.
Is it any wonder that she left me when I am such a fucking mess, why friends avoid me etc
I am well and truly fucked right now