Haven’t posted since Friday which is the longest period of silence since I started blogging!
It has been a rough few days emotionally and physically but I am still here fighting hard, just sometimes the fight goes when so many things conspire against you.
I ventured out into the big bad world of Christmas shopping last week with some money in hand to get some presents for the wife and kids. After buying a few pieces for everyone I went into one last shop for a big spend up and at that point realised that the money I had left over, about £150, was gone! Somehow between shops I had lost the last remaining money for Christmas! Either my pockets were picked or it simply fell out by itself I do not know but I am determined not to let it get me too down or I will end up destroying myself!
Sick does not even come close to describing my emotions so as a result I have been in hiding from the world.
I did get my lip pierced though so as a treat for you all here is the Moose with a fat lip and a photo that makes me look like a serial killer!
Fat Lip!
As of today I am in an improved mood. In fact over the weekend I was a good boy even doing some chores around the house and cooking dinner for everyone last night. Brownie points for me that I am saving for the next time I piss Sheryl off LOL
I am trying to embrace Christmas this year for the sake of the kids but it really is not my favourite time of year, growing up with mum and dad fighting every christmas will do that to you but Lilybet is very excited this year but unfortunately for me she has already “written a letter to santa to tell him you have been naughty” so no presents this year for Moosey!
The Depressed Moose 
Oh Moosey, that is bad. Not the lip….the money. I hear you loud and clear. I used to love Christmas until I became a single Mum. Now I am so broke, I just don’t know how to make it work. Family is great, but i’m too cynical about the religion now. I guess Father Christmas may just have to leave most of the pressies at Dad’s. 😦
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yeah I get that completely!
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Hey hon, I was hesitant to like this post but I liked it for this…
“As of today I am in an improved mood. In fact over the weekend I was a good boy even doing some chores around the house and cooking dinner for everyone last night”
Totally where you are with the Christmas thing, I’m not a fan of it, but you have to make effort for the kids, and that almost makes it worse. “Oh yay Christmas Im so happy yay” then wanting to cry lol.
Think this year I will be starting project, Make-Christmas-Less-Crap-Than-Last-Year, and I think that’s an achievable goal. I’m glad you’re back.
Hugs Mr. Moose x
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making effort for the kids is much easier for the 3 year old than the 9 year old and the teenagers! least her expectations are smaller and cheaper!
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Hey moose, sorry to hear how your feeling. Feeling a bit low myself and I’m sure the winter doesn’t help with depression as when it gets dark early I get a really bad headache! I’ve blogged about my depression on my blog for once at 5am this morning. My blog: http://www.copingwiththebigc.blogspot.co.uk
Xx
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My depression has come back too. I’m sure the winter doesn’t help. I blogged at 5am for the once time how I’m really feeling. I hope Xmas goes ok for you, Asa kid I was just happy to spend time with my parent.
Keep blogging! Becki
http://www.copingwiththebigc.blogspot.co.uk
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Reblogged this on livingwithbonecancer.wordpress.com.
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We are glad your back moosey, its good to see you again. Wish I could see the picture! I bet it looks great!
Carol anne
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i have the face for radio Carol Anne x
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Such a shame about the money, but glad you’re feeling a bit better. I think Christmas is more about the people you spend it with than the presents anyway, I really wish you and your family a very happy Christmas, especially because I know you don’t like Christmas (too much stress) xx
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Sorry to hear about the money, I hope your wife was not to upset with you for long.
Glad that you are feeling a bit better now.
I found Christmases and birthdays difficult but I have learned to take my feelings out of the equation and fill that gap with my children’s excitement.
I hope you have a good Christmas.
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thanks wifey doesnt know! she is stressed enough without knowing.
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Eeek! I’m so sorry, Garry. Losing that money was the very last thing you needed. Sometimes the bad luck just doesn’t stop. Glad you are able to push past it as there is nothing you can do to change what happened. As for Christmas, my mom has always made it into a bigger deal than it has to be … so I have done the opposite as an adult. I keep the gifts small and between immediate family only and focus on the joy of being together. And making cookies (cuz I like to bake).
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Morning Mr Moose, oh that’s good to hear that you’re back! Sounds positive that you’ve been doing stuff around the house and cooking, well done! All the best
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