Outside Looking In

Things are not always what they seem from the outside when depression gets a hold of someone

Been a while since I tried some poetry as always forgive me as it is not a strong point of mine!

This is no way indicative of how I feel today though….



You have wonderful kids and a beautiful wife!

I hate myself and hate my life!


You have a roof over your head!

My place is so small I dont sleep in a bed!


you live off the state so you must be rich!

try telling that to my empty freezer and fridge!


you get money for nothing life must easy!

Im dealing with thoughts that are trying to kill me!


you spend all your time on the internet!

I have to rely on people that I’ve never met!


depression isn’t real its all in your head!

I battle with the feeling of being better off dead!


your putting it on there is nothing wrong that I can see!

walk a mile in my shoes and see what its like being me!


You have a smile on your face you cant be ill!

the smile is fake masking how I really feel!






23 comments on “Outside Looking In

  1. Sometimes, or perhaps often, the problem with depression is that you look at your life and feel guilty for not being happy. Sometimes, or perhaps often, that only makes you feel worse.
    As much as I am only an internet friend, a lot of the people that appreciate your blog are a concentration of people who understand what you are feeling.
    It takes experience to “get” that.


  2. Brilliant! While not up there with Plath et al it is good descriptive writing, detailing your circumstances, what depression feels like and other people’s reaction/misunderstanding. Huge hugs to the moose.


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