How Has Depression Changed You?

I would be interested to hear if people think having depression has changed their life for the better?

We all know about the negatives that come from depression but there are circumstances that can occur as a result of this illness that may have had an unexpected impact in a positive light. Something that may have happened due to your depression that would not have happened otherwise.

Let me explain

Before being diagnosed with depression I was moody, short tempered, closed off from people – especially my wife, unhappy, unwilling to try anything new that was not mafia wars. My days were basically consisting of sitting at the PC playing mafia wars with the occasional human interaction added in (grudgingly) and lets not forget the suicidal feelings as well

I could barely face up to my own problems let alone think about other peoples. The idea of making myself available to others as a person people could look up to and ask advice from was a million miles from being possible.

I did not really have an idea that I was even depressed, I was aware of some of the symptoms from dealing my Uncle but never took a real hard look at myself and saw the signs until it was almost too late.

I guess the biggest relief for me when the Dr told me I had depression because then I had a reason for my strange behaviour and change in personality. I remember leaving the Drs with a huge weight having been lifted after the appointment and this is why, for me, I find it so important to encourage people to see their Dr and get diagnosed. There is nothing worse than thinking there is something wrong with you but not knowing what it is!

To carry on with my explanation.

Without having depression I would never even considered writing a blog let alone books. The only thing in my BD (before depression) days I would have known to write about would have how to play mafia wars, or how to make money from mafia wars (I once had an online store where I sold weapons, accounts and other items to the tune of $1000 a month!) but now I spend my time researching depression, writing and even trying to be a fund raiser for charity with the poetry book.

This all from a purely about me standpoint if I look at my relationship with Sheryl I would say having depression has helped that blossom as well because she now knows why I was so moody, always so tired etc.

I am blessed to be married to such a wonderful woman, who shows understanding above and beyond expectations. Our marriage has never been better because I took the steps to get help rather than just continuing to deny I needed help. There are days when there is a strain because of my need to sleep when exhausted but she never complains and accepts me as I am these days. She is my best friend and I can talk to her about anything these days knowing she will give me unconditional love and support. The power of talking to your loved one cannot be underestimated especially with something like depression.

I am very fortunate to have her in my life especially as my immediate family are so selfish they don’t ever contact me, in fact in a recent discussion with Sheryl I told her that if anything happened to me that she was not to let them know because they play no part in my life. They would not know if I was dead or alive because unless I initiate contact with them I never hear from them. I do not have people like that in my life.

I feel sorry for Brandon and Elizabeth because they have no relationship with their grandparents, uncles and aunty from side of the family but it is not them missing out. Hell my family did not even congratulate me on writing a book when I told them about it.

Hmmm I seem to have gone off point again…

So as I was (attempting) to say I can look back at the last 6 months since officially being diagnosed as the most productive in my life. Without suffering from depression I would not be a blogger, an author, a confidante to others and for that I can say I am grateful that depression, and my fight against it, has helped to mold me  into the depressed moose I am today.

What good has happened to you?

 

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26 comments on “How Has Depression Changed You?

  1. All I can say at this stage is that when the black dog bites, he bites hard and I do all I can to survive. The good its done I suppose is that its made me much tougher than before.

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  3. It’s helped me to do my job better, because I work with a lot of people with mental health issues.
    I think in a roundabout way it’s made me more confident. Now I know that there’s something wrong with me, rather than me being the thing that was somehow wrong.
    And because I think I’m tending to play it safe a little less now. I attempt more things because the worst that can happen as a result is never as bad as being suicidal again.

  4. In my gratitude journal being “mentally ill” is one of the first things I list. Years ago I decided I much preferred my problems over someone else’s. Yes I have to take my medication daily. Yes I have to have lab tests completed every few months. Yes I still have times when I feel like dying, but it has made a profound change in my life.
    I have opened myself up to love, caring, and risked being hurt. I had to admit my problems to people I loved and admired. I found people that admired me. I learned how to address my illness head on. I have turned this great weakness into one of my greatest strengths. Because of it I understand others like I never thought I could. I’ve learned not to judge others. I am a better husband, more patient father, and a truer friend. –Corey Richardson: Bipolar I w/ psychotic features.

  5. i guess if it hadnt of been for my depression I would never have began writing my poetry.. so to answer your question yes sometimes good can come out of bad.

  6. Depression can be viewed as a ‘warning sign’ that something in your life or, perhaps only in that one day, may need to be changed. It helps you to self-reflect, I find.

    I understand it to be much harder for bipolar sufferers though, as their episodes of depression are said to be many times stronger than what the ‘average’ sufferer will experience.

    I am pleased to read that your mood has improved greatly. 🙂

  7. To be honest, I dont know. I was diagnosed at the age of 13. I think if i hadn’t had depression i would probably be at uni or have just finished. But i wouldnt be where i am now. I have an amazing boyfreind, Fantastic freinds and currently a good support group. If i hadn’t had depression or been diagnosed. who would i be?

  8. My depression struck big time after my divorce last October and I’ve been unable to work since. However, I moved home (and county) and have started afresh. In July I abseiled down my local church despite being terrified of heights. Also, I have just started university (part time) so my depression is helping me reinvent myself and I am grateful for that x

  9. I’m so glad you’re looking at the positives!! You have achieved such a lot, and I agree it is important to get a diagnosis because it explains behaviour which can otherwise be seen as being grumpy or unsociable. If I hadn’t had depression, I never would’ve blogged either, and I never would’ve “met” all my lovely blogging friends here on WP! Also, it has made me realise that I want to be a psychologist to help people suffering with depression and other mental illnesses, whereas before I didn’t know what I wanted to do. So you’re right, not all the changes are bad ones!! Thanks Moose!xx

  10. Depression has definitely changed my life for the better, as well. Real quick, I’ve had it all my life. Each year it got worse. Until last year when I was ready to die. I was hospitalized and found out there were other mental issues in addition to the depression that were causing symptoms that I thought were part of depression. After several months of treatment and recovery, I can now say exactly what illness I have and I’m ready to share with the world that it’s okay to talk about mental health. I started a blog just like you and I’m currently writing a book. Sounds familiar, right?!

    What people need to know… You are not alone. There is hope. There is always hope, even when you think or feel like there is none. I’m alive today because I can define who I am without my mental illness. I’m alive today because I decide to disregard my negative thinking on a daily basis.

    So glad you posted this Moose. Thanks for the opportunity to share.

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