Losing My Way

I heard this song on my ipod earlier and the lyrics really hit me hard!

sample of lyrics

And it is breaking me down

Watching the world spin round

While my dreams fall down

Is anybody out there?

It is breaking me down

No more friends around

And my dreams fall down

Is anybody out there?

Can anybody out there hear me?

‘Cause I can’t seem to hear myself

Can anybody out there see me?’

Cause I can’t seem to see myself

There’s gotta be a heaven somewhere

Can you save me from this hell?

Can anybody out there feel me?

‘Cause I can’t seem to feel myself
Losing my way, keep losing my way

Keep losing my way, can you help me find my way?

Losing my way, keep losing my way

Keep losing my way, can you help me find my way?

Read more: JUSTIN TIMBERLAKE – LOSING MY WAY LYRICS http://www.metrolyrics.com/losing-my-way-lyrics-justin-timberlake.html#ixzz24syiHdF1
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I love music it gets me through rough times, as I have said to Sheryl many times : “if I am singing and dancing to music it is a good sign!”

Not singing or dancing tonight, just listening.

 

The tiredness of depression is wearing me down, the stress of money, Atos and all the other shit being thrown at me is getting harder to carry on my shoulders.

When I wake up tomorrow I can guarantee I will be tired!

Made an appointment with the Dr but nothing available until 5th September!

I should be happy tonight with the new book being published by you see the way my brain works is like so:

“Why has the new book already outsold the other one by 2.1 in just a few hours!”

In reality it should work like this:

“Garry you have published 2 books!”

I’m gonna borrow Weegee’s expression and say today I have a “broken brain” and its doing my head in!

People do not understand how tiring trying to be positive can be especially when all you can think about is negatives.

I am hoping I get the writing bug back in terms of my novel because the feedback has been great but in 3 days I have written virtually nothing. This is why the poem book was published slightly ahead of plan because it was starting to hang over me. Now I am just hoping people will help promote it because I have zero motivation as we speak!

This is currently the longest slump in my depression and despite peoples best efforts I can’t seem to get out of it.

Thank you Atos, Seetec and the economy for screwing with my recovery!!

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4 comments on “Losing My Way

  1. leave it to Justin Timberlake to screw up your night. I know it gets tiring to have to keep yourself positive. Try to listen to more positive songs for the rest of the night, or week. God and other positive energy can really work. Letting good things in and around you will take off a lot of the pressure to stay positive. You could write yourself a list of the good things you have going for you and you will find that your mind will get busy trying to think of more good things to put on the list, instead of thinking of the negative things. I hope you have a good night. xx

  2. i know its a small thought but remember you inspired me and you helped me , (i have now gone to smash words by the way )
    just keep on being yourself up or down just being you
    keep busy so then the circles your mind runs around in are the ones you should have, not the ones your mind insists on,
    its dfficult i know its difficult
    and dont punish yourself the books are out of your hands now and in the world how they do is not under your control
    try the distraction thoery find a new thing to worry about
    or a new direction
    try doing something completely differnt
    but dont forget to let your mind rest sometimes it can only heal if it is resting
    or you could just ignore me cos what do i know ? i have been to the dark place but i came out of it and if there is one thing i learned it is every ones dark place is different what works for me may not work for you
    keep thinking you have good stuff in your life
    and you have the support of friends here
    i am one of them
    i wish you strength and peace in your mind
    kiz
    and i hope you have a peaceful day

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