Phew what a day yesterday was!
I can honestly say that it was one of my worst days in months! No idea why either but then that’s the beauty of depression for you. There are no set rules, no rhyme or reason it just changes your mood like the flick of a switch.
The beauty of this is that it works in my favour in terms of writing this blog as my best work comes on my worst days! see how is that for putting a positive spin on my situation?
It helps me documenting my feelings on the awful days so that on days like today I can look back and try to find any causes or triggers.
Check out my left ankle in the photo! it has swollen up and hurts when I put weight on it and I have no idea what I did to hurt it or how it happened!
I don’t do pain very feel as I have spent the last 15 years with knee pains and pain always brings my mood down. It is definitely a trigger for me and may explain why I was so bad yesterday.
One thing that does stand out for me one the dark days is I always end up with a feeling of isolation from people. That no one wants to know me , or hear about my problems. Thankfully people reached out to me yesterday and made a real difference to my mood and I soon felt brighter.
Today I feel positive and again feel proud about my book. I have now sold 14 copies and have had three 5 star reviews. I can look at the reviews today and feel good about myself, yesterday that was impossible.
Depression works in mysterious ways and I guess sometimes hitting bottom can be a good thing because then there is nowhere else to go but up.
You have to accept the bad days to appreciate the good ones and more often than not my days are good, despite the hiccups of the last 2 weeks.
So for the rest of the day I intend to get back to my “normal” routine of reading and writing blogs, tying to remind people to submit poems for my book and keep annoying people until they buy my book! (by the way it is half price until Saturday as Smashwords, did I mention that? Click here for info!
Remember the more people who buy the book, and review – don’t forget the review it will get me more buyers, the bigger the moose tattoo I can reward myself with 🙂
In the words of the great Ron Burgundy
“You Stay Classy”