I want to share something with you that confuses me and I am struggling to make sense of it. It is something that has happened a few times and I am wondering if there is a hidden meaning that I cannot see or whether it is just me cracking up 🙂
I live near where the A406 meets the M11 so it is a busy stretch of road. I was waiting at a bus stop on Saturday watching the cars fly past when, clear as day, I saw myself running into the road out of the corner of my eye.
I wasn’t running to get hit by these cars, it wasn’t a suicidal thought or something to put me in harm’s way. At least I didn’t feel that way. It was like I was playing chicken with these cars and they could not get anywhere near hitting me.
Further examples of things like this are when I walk over the road above the A406 – I can see myself jumping down onto the road below but always landing on my feet and never being hurt by either the fall or the vehicles.
When I am on the underground I can see me running across the tracks but never being hit by the trains.
Does any of this mean anything? Is there something I can read into it?
Am I subconsciously trying to “kill” off the current Garry and go back to the old me? Is it the old me trying to break through?
All I know is it confuses the hell out of me and I don’t know whether it is the sort of thing I should mention to my Dr without worrying about being taken away by the men in white coats.